ytd went to school with my mum to collect the progress report. we went for the talk early in the early afternoon. telling us about how great the school is performing. then my mum started saying me. whatever, so i will start studying now. i will strive to the end. and score the best. after that we went back to class to collect the progress report. then i meet ms rozi. she tells my mum that i'm veri quiet in class and that seldom ask questions. i will only ask when the lesson is over. that's my style. at least the teacher can continue and will not have to stop and repeat. then my language problem. both my chinese and english were a big scare. i got Cs for both. that's scary.then ms rozi suggest that i do more and ask mrs lee to mark. that will help me to improve and will know my mistake. as for chinese, my class is with a new teacher, so we do not have time practice. she will help us check if i could join another class for the ssp and do time practice. actually i like to change teacher. my current class is too noisy, the teacher have to stop everytime to tell them to shut up, before carrying on with the lesson. nd also i did not know what the teacher is teaching. going through questions at the back is no use, why she has to go through? she also use 2 periods and can finish the whole chapter. she is so fast in teaching. then she ask which school i want to go and which course. then show me my target that i set. i set pretty high standard. that's my goal. so i will achieve it. i must work harder. she also wants me to get and A1 for science as i have the potential to get it. then i fail my combine humans. so now have to start doing more essay question as essay pull my whole grades down. saying there's 2 points in my essay and mark the whole thing wrong. so next time i have to be careful. after the whole thing, we went tp and then went home.friday was sports day. a tiring day. i did not take part in any track events so i just sit down and see people run. we shout, we scream when our class people were running. so fun. then they announce the winner, we also scream for 5n. then overall champion is 5n2. so nice. we have class photo taken. taken a lot time. after that we were release. so that's good. and that everyone end their day having a sore throat. the incident had make me to be a bad person. i have bad attitude. so be it. till ow i din even tok to them. or i try to avoid them? anyway hope it will be a clear sky tml. everything will be gone by today. everything will be safe too. hope to be friends again. i ahd made a stupid mistake too. green is my world @ 7:01 PM
my worse day ever. this is the first time i did so badly for my history. is it i'm too relax? i really study veri hard for it, but my results din show. i really damn pissed up. after getting my history results, i was happy. still can laugh, can play. but after that, i went totally quiet. for no reasons, i do not even want to talk. i jus shut myself up. giving myself no room for conversation. copying was what i did. feeling tears on my eyes, but i jus prevent it from falling. dun wish to be a crybaby. tis is what i told myself. after copying the ans for the ss essay, the teacher ask if we have any qns we can ask her. that time i really want to ask what has gone wrong with my essay, failing so badly. but i jus dun wish to talk bout it, and jus forget bout it. ah mian despite failing still can laugh, why i have to take it so seriously? sometimes i wonder if i've been playing too much? slacking too much? not studying? which will make me fail the test? i really dun know. giving out my 100% and tis is what i get. my heart hurts badly. what must i do? i focus myself on the maths homework, focusing and not slacking. this is what i will do in future. no more slacking. only studying. to achieve my goals. i must really study damn hard.ytd was worse. after school i went back home. i try out the maths workbk. it was veri difficult. i really cried out while doing the maths questions. am i that stupid? such problems also cant do. at that point of time, there is 2 sides of me. one calling me to stop, da other asking me to continue. i continued doing and end up crying even more. i had no choice but to stop. my tears gland jus wont listen to me. i throw my pen against the table and went out, snacking on junk food. this is wat i do most of the time. i will then went back to my room and continue. until now, the maths exercise, i still have yet to finish. i really was pissed off. jus wan to tell my mum that i wan to quit school and not be under study stress.however, i cant bear to do it. my mum spend so much on me and tis is what she get from me? i dun wish to be like my sis. i must persever. DUN STOP! NEVER GIVE UP! i must never give up, not till the end. jia you! green is my world @ 3:22 AM
wow! this week is still like hoilday to me. i slack most of the time. also there is little homework to do and i did not even start to practice. so tomorrow have to start practicing le. if not i will have to fail my test. anyway is a learning carnival week, so the week was being cut short. so i will not talk bout the studying week and will go straight to learning carnival.on thurs, was the 1st day of learning carnival. it start off with the creative challenge. my class send 2 teams to compete. should say they put in a lot of efforts in doing the cataput. they even stay back to do the distant. it was indeed a tough job. as for me, i only help out on tues. help them in the distant and help jhomel in his model as his team mates, none of them come and help him. he felt depressed and wanted to give it up and not be in the competition. so we encourage him and we all help him. should say is team spirit? anyway that day i was pissed off too. i wanted everyone to do the cheer but none want to work with me. i was like a idiot that day, shouting the cheer myself together with xl and xt. we were the faithful ones. the challenge ended in sweat, and some with throat problem. it relly is a tiring morning for me. anyway we did not win any. not for the cheer, not or the cataput. but we win as everyone know that we are the history maker. history maker for what? is kind of weird. we only know how to create troubles. so are we history maker for that? anyway after that creative challenge, we have a long string of talks. it was so tiring. then for the DISC. i quiet like it the demo in the carrer. penshah and hasyimah. so funny. anyway is fun to bully them. hope they will not mind. also from there i know which personality i'm in. so i know how i will react when i'm in stress and when with others. i also know how i feel about myself. i'm a peacemaker which indeed i'm when i'm with friends. i do not want friends to quarrel. i like peace. so nice of it to have peace in class. and not quarrel. i also do not like to give opinion as i may hurt the other party. this is who i'm. that day i lost my bet and i did not get my chocolate. my favourite chocolate was gone. sobs. nvm, will warn it back again the next time.then on fri, is another day of talks. we have a stress management talk in the morning. it is boring too. after that w have a game too. i got bang right into my chest. anyway i was ok but got 2 of them was worse. hasyimah fall whie finding a place to sit. she fall backward. then jocelyn and yuqian bang into each other. so i'm the lucky one. after the course, we went to the auditorium to listen to a talk. he told us how to manage stress and our aim. we must dream to success. after that we have a break and followed by the sculpture walk. we view all the sculpture and know what the artist want and what it means. it was a nice one. i like the law of gravity. we have to think, to imagine before we know what he's trying to say. so is a good one. then we went back to school. we had a breefing befor going to the movie at cathay. it was a touching movie. i cried at 2 scene. and also horrible when they killed themselves. the death and the injured. it was so horrible. after that we went home. we went on different path. i did not follow levina they all but instead with xl. we walk to sommerset. go central and disturb ppl. but din really disturb all of them. all not in. colin was so busy with work and we did not want to disturb him. so we left them to do their work and we went off. we walk till orchard mrt and went home. as it's really late. i did not go to tp. i take to dhoby ghaut and to my home. half way meet huiling wanyun they all. so coincidence. then when it's my stop i got off. wanyun they all ask him to alight too. he so guai and alight. whatever. i did not talk much to him. i wait for my bus he wait for his. then he take the same bus as me to my place. he himself later go home himself. i felt bad that he has to walk himself all the way to the bus stop outside. then i msg him to keep him 'accompany' but after that he was eating with sherman and we end our conservation. as i had a tiring night, feeling hungry too. i slept soundly into my sweet dreams, forgetting my hunger. and only wake up at 5.45 due to not switchig off my alram. then on sat, i went put to hav lunch with my friends. shld say i a happy one. i cant say much bput tis outing as we were quite divided. then we have lumch with new members inside. so nice. ah main so cute. then at 5.30pm, we left each other, taking the same line back home. so this is how i spent my week. hav to start bucking up this week. and to study again. green is my world @ 7:51 PM
hoilday is over soon. have to go back to sch and struggle. have to start my battle too. chinese o level will be round the corner. testes will start coming in. brain will start cracking. is really going to make me crazy. why must my life be like his?my hoilday was burn up doing my coursework. have to do more research for it. is kind of tired having to rush through my coursework to meet the deadline she prepared. she set such high expectation making me unable to do it. last year she din even call me redo the whole thing before. this year call me redo the research. anyway i hack care her. me continue doing and se what she has to say. i jus mail her my whole thing and let her see what i did. i spend all my time on this coursework yea. make sure is a distinction. i do not wish to work so hard for that and din get a distinction. really will make my heart sank. anyway still have other hwk to do. chem is giving me prob. i get almost everything wrong for the mole concet. really irritate me when i do the tys. then i give up on that unit and continue with the rest. lucky the rest i still know how to do. if not can go bang the wall le. then did the eng compre. still can manage but i din do the arguement on the debate. coz i lazy to do and olso dun wish to a damn on that debate. debate is not my prob, why shld i get involve in it? kind of waste my time. (pardon me for saying this.) then i did some revision on my maths. got a new tys, so have to start working on it. the 1st few chapter is ok for me. but i oli stop at chapter 4 and did not continue on. hope will not be so difficult and will not give me a hard time bahx! hehe.on mon was my chinese oral. i tink i did badly for that bahx! a lot of words i do not know to read. so thre i not frequency for that. is not smooth at all, as i read slowly and read the words clearly. soon even anyhow read. i olso dunno what i'm doing. that day really sick with my performance. then the conversation, hope i did not went out of point. if nott surely fail my oral. really damn sad for my oral. anyway ltr that day, at night, my whole family went for a dinner. we went to the bottletree restaurant at yishun. my uncle cant find the way in, keep turning round and round the stadium. my grandpa was angry by the time we reah there. we set of at 8 and oli reach at 9. really took 1 hr travelling and viewing the beautiful yishun. we even went to the wrong direction into the forest site. anyway we did make it to the place eventually. hahas! the place was so beautiful. veri romantic too. is a place for couples yea. hehe. i will want to visit there with my dear next time. hahas! this restaurant is different from the sebawang, there is quieter and veri deserted. that side is not as high class as yishun. but the food there is much more nicer than yishun. dunno izzit that day there is a lot of ppl thus the cook unable to cook nicely. the place was so nicely decorated. a playground for kids. fishing area to catch fish and olso prawns. there's even a corner for couples to talk near the river. really veri nice. the dish we eat was nice. what rubbish i toking, is a restaurant how can it not be nice. hehe. by the time we finish our dinner was already 10. my mum foot the bill. it was damn expensive lor. a total of 340 bucks after discount of 10% yea. my mum was shocked, but what can we get as it's the restaurant. of oz the price are not cheap yea. so the next time we'll go is when my grandparents' b'dae bahx! or may not even go there till next year chinese new year. on tues, went to sch to have lesssons. maths and f&n. we din really do much that day. maths was a big headach for me as i do not understand what he's toking. nvm, i will go home and revise again. then mr wong is bout to vomit blood that day. we everything olso dunno. he is so fused up. then ltr f&n, we do coursework. i stay till bout 1.30 while the rest went off after 12 noon. mrs chew help me with my coursework and then i continue with it. so now i do not know what to do next as my list is in the file. so jus do my recipe finding suitable recipe for a child.wed i went out with my friends. i bought a top at this fashion. then xl bought a bag and slipper. she damn rich yea. a bag cost 50++, she willing to buy. for me i will keep considering if i nid the bag and do i have to buy it. anyway she is rich, cant blame. hahas! i'm peasant so do not have much money to spare. nid to save for raining days. and for my books. so i will not anyhow waste money. hehe.the rest of my days was doing my hwk and nth else. heys! the campus superstar, did anyone from zhs join? that time i pass by, saw a guy but he got out. din have a chance to compete. anyway for those to join and got out. do not give up, continue on and will soon be able to have ur dream come true. hehe! jiayou yea! green is my world @ 7:48 PM
term 1 had been a stressful and busy term for me. i have lats of work to finish and time i not enough for me. work load is heavy, and also have to go to gym to see faces. is really a very difficult term for me. test jus ended on thurs. i have 3 testes on thurs, one after the other. have to study till siao. but no choice who ask the class to keep on changing the dates, and everyone have to suffer with them. test finally is over and i finally can rest. after the chem test, i am veri tired and after that i did not listen to any lesson. i am veri slepy and was about to dose off that kind. but luckily i did not dose off. i still listen a little but most of the time in my dreamland. march holiday is so short, oli a week. is not enough for me. i ahve to revise last 2 years work as i have totally forget everything. so this week i cant play much, i have to start doing my new tys. i have to bring evrything back to my brain and not let it wonder outside. hahas! then mon have chinese oral. somemore at 1pm. i prefer in the morning. at least afternoon, after the oral, i can do my work. too bad, i cant change the it, so have to do with the current arrangement. somemore after oral have to go gym and report. shld i go? i kind of lazy to exercise. then tues i have 2 ssp. in the morning i have maths ssp for 2 hrs. then at 10 have f&n ssp. i have to do my coursework then. now i also dunno how to do my coursework. she everything also say cant. so which 1 can? i really very tired le. who can give me ideas?as for gym, i need not have to go for gym anymore. but mr keong call mi to go for the performance. shld i go? i wan to go but then levina they all do not wan. i perform alone is very bad. so how? this year my last year, i hope i can perform. if not no chance le. anyway they say when sch reopen need not go cca, izzit true? will my cca allow? haix i also dunno. i really hope to concentrate on my studies le. my results are not gd. have to buck up le. wish mi all the best yea! green is my world @ 7:18 PM
