<body> -Green In My World- <body>
Don't stop! never give up!
Tuesday, March 27, 2007

my worse day ever. this is the first time i did so badly for my history. is it i'm too relax? i really study veri hard for it, but my results din show. i really damn pissed up. after getting my history results, i was happy. still can laugh, can play. but after that, i went totally quiet. for no reasons, i do not even want to talk. i jus shut myself up. giving myself no room for conversation. copying was what i did. feeling tears on my eyes, but i jus prevent it from falling. dun wish to be a crybaby. tis is what i told myself. after copying the ans for the ss essay, the teacher ask if we have any qns we can ask her. that time i really want to ask what has gone wrong with my essay, failing so badly. but i jus dun wish to talk bout it, and jus forget bout it. ah mian despite failing still can laugh, why i have to take it so seriously? sometimes i wonder if i've been playing too much? slacking too much? not studying? which will make me fail the test? i really dun know. giving out my 100% and tis is what i get. my heart hurts badly. what must i do? i focus myself on the maths homework, focusing and not slacking. this is what i will do in future. no more slacking. only studying. to achieve my goals. i must really study damn hard.

ytd was worse. after school i went back home. i try out the maths workbk. it was veri difficult. i really cried out while doing the maths questions. am i that stupid? such problems also cant do. at that point of time, there is 2 sides of me. one calling me to stop, da other asking me to continue. i continued doing and end up crying even more. i had no choice but to stop. my tears gland jus wont listen to me. i throw my pen against the table and went out, snacking on junk food. this is wat i do most of the time. i will then went back to my room and continue. until now, the maths exercise, i still have yet to finish. i really was pissed off. jus wan to tell my mum that i wan to quit school and not be under study stress.

however, i cant bear to do it. my mum spend so much on me and tis is what she get from me? i dun wish to be like my sis. i must persever. DUN STOP! NEVER GIVE UP! i must never give up, not till the end. jia you!

green is my world @ 3:22 AM