<body> -Green In My World- <body>
a tiring week!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007

taken on 28 may wif my cousins n sis
mon was a scary day for me. i had not experience this for a long time since last year. last year was n-level and i am not so scared about it. even for my o-level e maths, i was not so nervous. do not know why, on mon, i am so frightened. i fear going into the examination hall. but in the end i just went in and take the paper. i think i did badly for it, as my mind was in a mess. moreover, my flu is back, i had difficulties concentrating. but overall, i did give my best. i really hope this exam shall the best result as i had been failing in my school's paper. i hope to get an A for that and concentrate on the others subjects. after the exam, i went to the movies with my friend. mermaid had to watch the show another time to accompany me. sry mermaid. we went to see the pirates of the caribean. so nice! and again they announce their love while fighting. so romantic as they kissed. the show end around 5.10 and i had to rush home for the dinner at 7. is indeed a rush for me. from bishan to my home will take about 1hr. but lucky, when i went home, i can straight away prepare for my bathe. then i went back to my home to prepare. and at 7+, we left for the dinner. cable car tower 2. we just find the way, and we walk a long way before reaching it. finally we reach there. n we were not the last. there is still people later than us. we ate and we talk. the food there was not very nice. but not too bad. i prepare hotel food. then we had photograph taken with the couples. and had a photo with my cousins. that night i was surprise i did not take any wine. but is a good thing if not the next day, i will be very sleepy and will have a headach. so the dinner ended with a full stop. may they will have an enjoyable time together. hahas!


the rest of the days were very boring. just studying and had to go to school as per usual. so tiring. i see my cousins and my sis sleeping. i also want to sleep. do not want to go to school. but too bad i cannot. if not i will have detention the next day. hope this days will pass soon.


ytd, was the only 1 day which i can go home early. i went to swim with my sis. so nice. but i got darker again. hahas! we swam for 2 hrs. really swimming and not slacking. first time i am like this. keep swimming and not slacking. anyway, did enjoy the swim. hope to go swimming again.

green is my world @ 6:11 PM

a crying season!
Saturday, May 26, 2007

wow! this week is a busy week. eversince the start of last week, all sec4e and 5n students had to stay back and do time practice. it was a tiring one. i nearly give up on doing. really cant take it. anyway it was over, thurs was the last day of the paper. and we were released early on fri to give us some break.

tues, my terrible day. that was the first time i went home early. i had such terrible flu that i had no choice but to go home. i cried as i talk on the phone to my sister. she cant bring me home as she had to go to school, but then my mother bring me home. i felt so bad she had to come all the way here to bring me home. sry mom! as the days got hotter and hotter, my nose starts giving me trouble. now is still the same. that day, i went home early. i did not catch a nap and went on to study for the bio test on wed. then at 3, i went to see a doc. as usual flu. then went home to have my medicine taken. the flu tablets was so strong that i could not continue studying. that day i was down with fever too. so i spend my evening sleeping. i only wake up at 8pm because the phone woke me up. anyway i'm thankful for the ringing of the phone, if not i would not be able to study for the test. then i receive messages from my friends. anyway i really thank them for their concern. that time i was so drowy that i did not know what i was replying. then i continue with the study, i think nothing got into my head. i just want to sleep that's all. and i take the day the next day. the effects of the medicine was powerful that during the bio test, i almost fell asleep. but lucky i control myself from sleeping. hope this test i will not fail.

fri was the last day of school. it was the worse last day too. i had a crying episode after the chinese. that day was xie lao shi last day too. we buy her a gift to thank her. i really like her. she teaches me right from the start as i had forgotten most of it. then she reteach. then she also teach me what to do and even give me comments on my work. i really appreciate it. i will bear all her words in mind. that day, during the chinese, all the teacher wish us luck. their words are so touching that i had no choice but to let my tears fall. my god, crying scene again. anyway, for the hard work i had put in, i will not let it gone to waste. i will work hard and give all my best on mon. i will want an A for chinese. after that went to see xie lao shi. she talk to us. so we chat for a long time. after that she had an appointment, so she went off. we cried as we say goodbye. i did not know my tears will drop so fast. anyway xiae lao shi: i will work hard! i will not lt you down!

fri had a lot of things happening. that fri, i hurt three guys. one is ah mian, the other is tj and lastly baby. sry to your. i talk o ah mian and cause him harm. and tj was innocently called a dog. that day my mood was foul too, i just talk back to baby. but is he make me do it. i hope this will come to end soon. i' very stress up with this. i'm sick and tired of this. i hope this will end faster.

to lewis:
i'm sry to write that letter to you. i din mean to say that at this point of time. it was nearing the o level and i said those things to you. but i cant help it but to say that to you. i dont want you to get that wrong mpression of me. i'm not a good girl. you will not be able to make you happy. i will only bring sorrow to you. please forgive me. and also this decision is also make by me. it has nothing to do with anyone. is all my decision. and hope you will not hurt qingguo they all. so here i sincerely apologise to you. i'm sorry lewis! hope the time will cure your wounds. cheer up buddy.

mon is chinese o-level! let's work hard together and give our best! jiayou!

green is my world @ 8:48 AM

laughter the best medicine!
Saturday, May 12, 2007

wow! back to my own self, the happy-go-lucky one. today have tuition(eng). actually should be a boring one but today i laugh alot. due to one of the guys in the class, i was back to my own self. i feel so great. thanks alot. pass few days, i'm busy with my work. i do not seem to be cheerful at all. but today, after the laugh, i feel so much better. anyway today is another slack day for me. i do not wish to study so much, quite tired of studying. then went tuition. after that slack again. watch tv and do none of the homework. maybe tonight i will sleep late and continue doing my tuition homework.

on thurs was a tiring day for me. in the morning, we had pe. really scare me. i was kicking the soccer to my group member and i did not see simin's leg there. so i just it. she falls. but i was so call quick, quickly kneel down and hold her in her arms. i did not know if she did hurt herself. but i was so rough. really sorry simin. but i hurt my arm. that day, my neck can't turn to the left. i think i hurt myself while helping her. anyway is ok, lucky nothing happen to her, if not i will feel bad. simin, i'm really sorry! then in the later afternoon, i had practical trial. i was so slow. everything just did not go on smoothly for me. as my friends are not with me, i feel so lonely. no one to talk to. soon it ended. my pudding did not turn out well. is a failure. so i have to redo the puddding another time. after that i went home. i got baby to follow me. keep following me. i got no choice but to walk fast. anyway is my actual speed. then he can't catch up with me. that's so sad. me pity him, slow down. at the entrance to the interchange, i stop and wait for the two guys. then they went to buy drink and i left them. a close shave. if he really did follow me home, i will really die. but my leg hurts from the quick speed i'm walking. now still pain. all baby's fault. after that i did my homework. till 12 before i turn in. too tired to continue doing.

actually i had been thinking, izzit bad for me to treat baby like this. asking him to wait? i feel bad, but the thing is i do not wish to think about relationship at this time. i do not have time to accompany baby, do not have the mood to talk to him. in class we seldom talk and is like avoiding him. i also do not know what to do. i'm so vexed now. what should i do? i also do not want anything got to do with SG. with them, i do not have the freedom to talk with friends. jus like ah mian, tj and jhomel. now is like a clod war between us. i cant even talk to ah mian. everytime we want to talk, we have to see faces. if not they have to be called dogs. i really hate this. is it that nice to call people dog? why don't your put yourself in their shoes and feel how they feel? i'm pissed off with the behaviour. when will this ever stop? i really this will stop soon and back to the life that i'm able to communicate witth them freely. i really want to see ah mian laughter again. i also want to talk to tj and jhomel again. i want to talk to jhomel again, not only f&n work but all those conversation which we once said. i really long for this day. will i be able to break free from the SG? will i be able to get back my laughter and not loneliness? i will hope this day will come soon.

green is my world @ 8:56 AM