haix! get back my paper 2 le. still fail. why did it always happen to me. i'm sick of failing english. why do i do all the things and just did not manage to pass. not even a just pass. i'm tired of working so hard. my hard work just did not paid off. why did it become like this? i think practice makes perfect. but it does seem to happen to me. i'm beginning to lose interest in eng. my head is exploding soon. my tears will start to water the plants. today, after taking back the paper. i felt worse. all the bad feelings started coming to me. my heart hurts badly. my head started to ach. i do not even have mood for f&n. i felt like crying but control back my tears. is lucky that i did control. if not will shame myself. anyway i do not feel like having eng tuition le. i feel so stress up. stress with the amount of revision i have to do. stress with the pile of assessments. stress with the continuous practice paper. i really cant take it. i really need a break. green is my world @ 3:53 AM
in class you have been calling them dogs. i have been controlling my temper. u better not mess with it. if u call them dogs, u are no better. u are a pig. mind you. if u dont like this kind of name better dont give it to them. they are humans, so are you. so lets make this clear, dont make me pissed of and start my nonsense. i do not like to mak a scene. if i have to spoil my image i will. anyway dogs are better than pigs. dogs are obedient, can learn. but pigs dont. they only know how to sleep and sleep that's all. dogs are far better than pigs. whatever your msn nick u say, i dont mind. but whatever you say in class mind. hope you will change sonner. i ahte to see u like this.racial harmony day on fri. din manage to borrow an ethnic. actually if i want to wear i can. but at first all say dont wear. dunno why end up almost half the class wearing. that atmosphere was so great. i feel like wearing on that day too. last year of secondary sch. din manage to wear it as a whole class. unlike in primary school. wear ethnic costume almost every year and almost all of them wore. so nice. secondary sch life is not fun. no one will even bother. anyway is over. cant return to the past. that fri, saw everyone wear till so nice. i envy them. some even went to buy it last minute. at least they gave an effort for that day. unlike me, just do not care. thinking everyone will be like me, not going to wear. but was relieve that half the class do not wear. is no that odd. quite glad. just wonder when will our clas be united like n2. all 5 years in zhs, i had been in a not united class. never once had it been united before. only when it is national day that we wore red and last year be yourself day, we wore. i only like that days. hope this year will be the same. wear red together. been shedding tears for maths. dunno how to do relative velocity. racking my brain till my brain had become dry but nothing came out. think this topic, i shall skip it and concentrate on others. if not i will be suffering. green is my world @ 6:50 PM
wow! been getting back my mock paper. but not all of them, just some of it. guess the teachers are still busy marking them. i only get back my english paper 2 which is not mark. we have to do perr marking. which is i do not even know how to mark. then today got back then chem paper. should not a very well done one. quite disappointed with the result. guess i have to start bucking up, if not i may not even get to go to the science course. have to keep working hard. then yesterday spend the social studies period doing nothing. i read my storybook which i borrowed from xl. hope to finish by this week and then return to her. do not wish to hold on to the book for so long. then yesterday got back the history paper. got 23 for that. quite happy with it. thanks to you that i score so high. 在这里我想感谢他对我的教导.很感激他这么的努力教我history.我无法与他沟通因为出了问题.希望他能早日与我做朋友.希望他能忘掉过去.在这我很称心的感谢他来教我.yea! tomorrow harry potter will be out. long to watch it. but really just in time. tuesday will be watching it. so great. finally. and was lucky that it does not clash with our prelim or mock. and it was also a good time to relax after the mock paper. like it lots. waiting for the day to come soon. yeah! green is my world @ 3:16 AM
wow! finally the mock prelim is over. have been suffering under the huge piles of book. suffocating soon. now finally able to relax a bit. at least a time for breathing space. past few weeks have not been able to sleep well. sleeping late at night to finish my last minute revision/ study. the june holidays had not been of help. i was slacking throughout. it was until the school reopen that i started studying. studying last minute was a killer. i dare not do this anymore. having to study everything at one go. my brain is not elastic, cant contain too much information. whenever too much had been stored, my brain started hurting. is a killer. but now finally is over. can relax for few days before resuming back to my studies.actually the paper was ok. is just that i did not put my heart, mind and soul into doing it. so everything got screw up. but i believe i will be able to make it as i have support. hahas! he has been encouraging me. such good friend of mine. though i did not contact him for so long, he still remember this friend of his. hahas! thanks pal! as for the a maths paper 2. it was so difficult. cant do most of it. leave 1 question totally blank. do not know how i should start. somemore that time the room was stuffy and warm. while doing the paper i was perspiring like hell. anyway what done cant be undone. i cant turn back time. i can only work hard and continue on. all the best for my prelim.ytd, i took my f&n 0-level coursework b. i screw up the whole thing. my mind just do not start working. do not know how it is. kind of have a weird feeling. the teacher had to tell me to relax and not panic before i can start doing the planning. if not my 10 marks will be down the drain. actually i do not even know what it is. saw my classmate writing of seriously, i kind of feeling down. i know nothing and cant do it. i have to keep writing on a new piece of paper before i can write a new and actual one. i spend of my time re-writing. really damn pissed of with myslef. how i wish i can re-take the paper. i bet i can do a better job.today there is no lesson but career seminar. i got to know some of the JCs and some poly. quite interesting but was boring as time passes. my attention spent was not good. so did not listen throughout. i was drifting away and playing a fool. anyway still get to know some of it. then went for the o-level chinese oral. quite successfully done. so should be ok. the thing is i think i kind of get out of point. the examiner had to ask me questions to bring me back. kind of risky. then his last sentence to me is:' u say a lot, did quite well, no need to worry.' so what does that mean? i was scared hell out of it. hands kept sweating. so weird. but after that, just did not think much of it. hope i can get a distinction for it. i WANT a distinction. green is my world @ 3:15 AM
