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prelim exams started!
Thursday, August 30, 2007

finally the prelim started. i should say finally. i have been studying so hard for this prelim, staying back almost everyday to do a maths paper. and was being wrong. anyway is ok to me. now prelim had started. i need to study extra hard. no more play for me. i need to work towards my goal. somehow i just cant see my goal and cant even feel it. maybe i am just too lack behind. i hope this prelim will be a good start for me to see that i have improve. my mock prelim is a failure and every subject just did not meet my expectation. my a maths too. anyway, i just have to pull my socks real high. have to work extra hard.

tuesday was the science practical. hope i did well for that. as my chem practical has not been good from the start but i really hope this chem prelim will score well. as for bio, i forget the labels to the diagram. so hope can score well. then yesterday was the english paper one and two. paper one is still ok for me. i did read some examples before the exam. maybe what i read was just not enough. as for paper two. should i was very disappointed with my performance. i just could not concentrate and the paper was difficult. hope i could at least pass the paper. guess i still have to practice more on my english after the prelim in order to score better in the o-level. as for today, the social studies paper was real good. all the essay question i read came out. i was happy like hell. but the thing is i do not have time to finish. i write till my finger blistered, still cant manage to finish. so have to depend on history to really pull up the marks and get a better score.

sometimes i just feel so lonely in my heart. my heart kept crying for no reason. whenever i study i just feel like crying. also do not know why. i hope there will be someone to lend me a should to lean on. to allow me to cry my heart out. is really painful keeping everything inside this small heart of mine. i cant let my mum know if not she will be worried. just like that time when i tell her that i fail my english again and i burst into tears. she got shocked and was afraid i would do something stupid. i really need someone to talk to. to pour my sorrow. i really hate the way i am at now. with the high expectation i give myself, i really cant take it. if i let myself lose, i will not achieve what i want. if i did not let go, i will become crazy. so what should i do?

green is my world @ 2:11 AM