-Green In My World-

graduation day

Saturday, October 13, 2007

friday was all sec 4E, 5n and 4T's graduation day. i should say it was really a sad one. but i was surprise i did not cry. i was also sad at what mr harzy had say. but lucky tears did not roll down my cheeks. then i was laughing throughout the session. the speech the chairperson made was really funny. but i think they really did a good one. better than my class. my class's speech last minute add in to lengthen it. but at least they did add, if not it really will make the class kind of weird. so after the ceremony, everyone was dismissed. all were invited to the lunch refreshment. the queue was long so we just have to wait. after that, we went to take photo with my classmates. at first did not want to take as i was not photogenic. but was force and end up taking picture. soon i was addicted and stared taking with the rest. i was an idiot not to bring my camera. if not i can post the photo up. but anyway, i took photo with almost all the soccer gang except shengyang, penshah and kuansiong.(should be) then i took picture with the rest, even teachers. i want to take with ms rozi but could not find her. maybe do not have the fate to take photo with her. then i took picture with baozhu(zinam) in the rain and also with hasyimah later. i want to see the utcome but did not have the chance to see it. just have to wait for hasyimah to send to me. then i took picture with ms tan and ms ong. later with mr wong. but friday was really a weird day. this is the first time i'm so wild. taking photo with people and even guys. 1st time in my life. after that i went home with levina, xianglin and hasyimah. i was soak to my skin and so did not stay for the night study. but end up still go back school to study. on the bus(105), xianglin and i saw andrew. she so paiseh. then i purposely go call andrew. then xianglin quickly cover herself. really is funny. at 6pm, i went back school to study. then after the study xianglin suggest going geylang seri to see. really alot of people. i could hardly carry on walking. so we just walk out and not carry on, leaving xianglin behind. later we met at the mrt and we went home. that day was the funniest day i ever had. i really wish i had more of these days. (photos will be uploaded after Os)

then on saturday, just as normal. it rain the whole day so i could not go swimming. i was stress and want to relax, but the weather just do not grant me the wish. then went tuition and later, go mac and study with my friend. actually did not study much. go there talk and talk. did not really work. then went home around 9. i walk him to the mrt before i went home. i fear he will know where i stay. so today just pass like this without doing much things.

to all out there taking O-level. here's wishing every success in your O-level. give your best shot!

green is my world @ 9:19 AM

a KILLA week!

Sunday, October 07, 2007

this week is a week which i hate most. all the lesson change to an hour. is so tiring. then most of the lesson is humans or chemistry. damn boring. but still get over with each lesson. also this week is the starting of the night study. should be a good one as i can do my work in school and ask teacher/ friends whenever I'm in need. but indeed was a tiring one. i stay back for almost the week, except on thurs and friday. i stay till 8.30 almost everyday. then study throughout. no slacking at all. i really envy my that i can do work for such long hours. but on second thought i do not know if this staying back did help me. this make me so tired, reaching home at around 9. is really tiring. then i will continue to study till 11 or even 11.30 before i go to bed. i really hope all my hard work is worthwhile and also my lacking of sleep.

also during the night study, i get to work with other people. teaching them how to do the questions etc. at the same time I'm recapping what is thought. save me some studies. i also know that 5n students are very hardworking too. maybe the prelim did act as a wake up call for all. even me too. i finally know that these subject i took is not easy and that i need more practice in order to get my desire distinctions. seeing how the rest work, i got the motivation and i study as well. if i were to go home and study, i will not be able to. i will study half way and go to my lala land. i will sleep and will forget about my work. so studying in school is an advantage to me.

on friday, was my a maths prelim 2. it was really difficult. i do till i can cry. i can understand why last 2 years students will fail. taking this prelim is really a bad one. we also need to agree to one condition. if we were to get 30% and below, we will be force to drop. i do not know if i take this test is a good one for me. on fri, while i was taking the test, i was skipping from one question to the other. i really do till my brain is exploding. but i was stupid enough to overlook question 12. i did not do question 12 at all. bet mr wong is going to kill me. why am i so stupid? did not see that question? really hate myself. 10 marks is gone just like that. i really hate myself. so after the paper, i totally no mood, i felt like killing myself. i really hate this kind of torture. so i did not study and went home after lunch. just hope that tomorrow paper 2 will be better and not so difficult. hope can pull up my paper 1 marks. i will be happy if i just pass the paper1. i will be very glad.

but if i was force to drop the subject, i will cry like hell. i waste/ spend so much time on practicing and just before the o-level i was force to drop. i will totally lost control of myself. i will not know what i will do next. i will hate myself damn lot. without my mother by my side, i really do not who i can talk to. no one understand me. i really need someone to really help me out.

i really hope o-level will be a month away, so that i can do more revision. i really need time to prepare myself for the o-level.

green is my world @ 3:02 AM