<body> -Green In My World- <body>
a KILLA week!
Sunday, October 07, 2007

this week is a week which i hate most. all the lesson change to an hour. is so tiring. then most of the lesson is humans or chemistry. damn boring. but still get over with each lesson. also this week is the starting of the night study. should be a good one as i can do my work in school and ask teacher/ friends whenever I'm in need. but indeed was a tiring one. i stay back for almost the week, except on thurs and friday. i stay till 8.30 almost everyday. then study throughout. no slacking at all. i really envy my that i can do work for such long hours. but on second thought i do not know if this staying back did help me. this make me so tired, reaching home at around 9. is really tiring. then i will continue to study till 11 or even 11.30 before i go to bed. i really hope all my hard work is worthwhile and also my lacking of sleep.

also during the night study, i get to work with other people. teaching them how to do the questions etc. at the same time I'm recapping what is thought. save me some studies. i also know that 5n students are very hardworking too. maybe the prelim did act as a wake up call for all. even me too. i finally know that these subject i took is not easy and that i need more practice in order to get my desire distinctions. seeing how the rest work, i got the motivation and i study as well. if i were to go home and study, i will not be able to. i will study half way and go to my lala land. i will sleep and will forget about my work. so studying in school is an advantage to me.

on friday, was my a maths prelim 2. it was really difficult. i do till i can cry. i can understand why last 2 years students will fail. taking this prelim is really a bad one. we also need to agree to one condition. if we were to get 30% and below, we will be force to drop. i do not know if i take this test is a good one for me. on fri, while i was taking the test, i was skipping from one question to the other. i really do till my brain is exploding. but i was stupid enough to overlook question 12. i did not do question 12 at all. bet mr wong is going to kill me. why am i so stupid? did not see that question? really hate myself. 10 marks is gone just like that. i really hate myself. so after the paper, i totally no mood, i felt like killing myself. i really hate this kind of torture. so i did not study and went home after lunch. just hope that tomorrow paper 2 will be better and not so difficult. hope can pull up my paper 1 marks. i will be happy if i just pass the paper1. i will be very glad.

but if i was force to drop the subject, i will cry like hell. i waste/ spend so much time on practicing and just before the o-level i was force to drop. i will totally lost control of myself. i will not know what i will do next. i will hate myself damn lot. without my mother by my side, i really do not who i can talk to. no one understand me. i really need someone to really help me out.

i really hope o-level will be a month away, so that i can do more revision. i really need time to prepare myself for the o-level.

green is my world @ 3:02 AM