should i say finally my applicantion for withdrawal of korean language? somehow when i receive the e-mail saying my withdrawal was successful, i was kind of regreted. actually i also do not know why i want to withdraw. actually i can cope with it. is it an excuse? i also do not know. somehow, i was being hook into the korean language. is like learning new stuff. feel so high that i know a 3rd language. but now is so low. i have been cut off from korean. oh no! how? feel so regretful. question keep coming to my mind. should i just tell the person in-charge that i do not want to withdraw anymore? how? what am i to do? feel so idiot now. if i tell my sis that i regret making the decision, she will kill me for sure. my mom even say dun you feel regret dropping this language? actually i do. but i did not say out loud only. i just told her that i will try next semester. oh no! i hate myself to the core.and guess what, i have wasted 1 hour studying for korean yesterday. sleeping only at 11.30pm. and today in between breaks, keep studying korean. and even when in the bus, study korean. and now, did not even take the test and am at home thinking what they are studying now.
can anyone tell me what to do? green is my world @ 4:06 AM
actually suppose to go out with lingyeow, qing guo and levina. but due to some matter was cancel. feel a little pity. but too bad, no fun. maybe that's fate. ask me to finish my homework and not go out and play.actually, i have a camp bbq today. but lingyeow ask me to go sing so i reject the bbq offer. is kind of pity too. i have not go out with my camp mates. not even once. who knows they might think i am a loner. anti-social. but eveything was crashed yesterday. levina cannot make it. qing guo does not want to go as there is too little people. ling yeow very pissed. i am pissed too. he msg me a lot of 'f'' word. oh my. first time sia. hehe. but i know he is pissed, so did not care much. and i just forget about it. so i missed my chance of buying new clothes then. but good too. save money! have been spending quite alot this week.then today, spend my whole day doing tutorial worksheet. biostat really kills me. so difficult. do till i can die. somemore so many questions to do. then lingyoew called me. ask if the outing was totally cancelled. i thought everything was cancelled. but he called me to go out last min. you should know me. once i get settled down with my work, i will get on with it. and will be very lazy to go anywhere. even going downstair to get something. so i just reject his offer. kind of sorry towards him.to lingyeow:hi pal, i am really sorry. cant go. quite lazy. i think you know me. i will make sure/promise i have time to go next time. even if they can't go, i will go with you. i know you want to sing. i also want to sing. but my singing sux. hehe. so maybe during the holidays, we will find a day to go with you to sing. that time we will sing 5hrs ok? hahas! so dun sad le. be happy!as i have said, apent a lot this week. really damn lot. $45 on the tas trip to malaysia (2-4 may). then $70 to do my passport. (thank god i manage to have my passport taken on time for the trip) then a tas shirt for $10. so is kind of lot. have to save up a little. maybe next week will not have lunch for me. just have to tie my stomach.looking forward for the tas trip! yeah! green is my world @ 8:10 AM
wow! withdraw from korean language. somehow feel a litlle regretful. how? actually i have no choice. with the course i'm at now is enough stress for me. plus a language which is totally foreign to me is a killer. somehow i hae the interest to korean but the way the teacher teaches is really killing me. doing korean work is ok. but the way he speaks in hangul, i really 'catch no ball'. hehe. i think maybe i hearing have some problem. though i have withdraw, it is still not confirm if my withdrawal is successful not. and they only refund 70-80% of the amount. somehow i feel that i have the urge to tell them that i want to continue and not withdraw from the language. but feel is like very troublesome. and also very paiseh. all blame me for taking things so easily. withdraw and just withdraw. never think of the aftermatch. anyway, if withdrawal is not successful, i will still have to go back and study. hope it will be unsuccessful. green is my world @ 7:13 PM
wow! i'm so hot! n burnt. hehe!today a group of us went sentosa to have a session of sun-tanning. i thought it will have at least about 30 of us but it turn out to be 15 as what they have said. so i was kind of reluctant to go. but somehow i still go. so shocked that i really go. so i just prepare myself and suddenly receive a message from kuansiong telling me not to be early or punctual. so i listen to him and was 20min late. but when i reach there, there is only yuhang and peiru there. so i was quite pissed. late till so much. then went giant to buy water and slowly, people started coming in. so in the end, it was only a group of 10 people going. so not really fun. so we went in at about 1pm.by 1pm, the sun was hot like hell. but we still play. so the 10 of us, huiling, peiru, xianglin, yuhang, sherman, lewis, jonatons, kuansiong, shengyang and me started playing volleyball. the sand was pipping hot. no choice, cant wear slippers, so we bear with the pain and play. then change to dog-and-bone. play like hell. and yuhang group lost of they have to undergo forfeit. it was no fun. it was only until the volleyball was stuck in the tree that we started playing in the water. the water was damn salty. then we play monkey in the sea. damn difficult to catch the ball. then we had photos taken. we even throw sand at people. quite fun. at about 5pm, we went to have our bath. no people in the toilet so we quickly wash and was out. then went vivo to have a bite. keep walking until we settle at long john. after that i went home, leaving them behind.when i reach home, went to have a bath again. my back was bloody red. wonder how i will carry my bag. is so hot and painful. hope tomorrow my face will not be that red too. anyway, 1st week had passed and a new week is here. have to get ready for school. let's work hard for poly! green is my world @ 6:08 AM
wow! 1st week in np was really a killer. 1st day is ok. but from 2nd day onwards, things start to get busy. lectures follow by lectures. seeing my time-table was so slack. but in fact was not. have to travel here and there. which take up lots of the time. really tiring by the end of the day.as days passed, more and more homework started clogging up. have to buy lecture notes book and lab manual. spend quite a fortune on it. lucky my mother help me pay for it. if not really will end up being broke. anyway, this whole week have been walking up and down the campus. maybe a form of exercise for me. think i will loss weight. lots of weight. so people will be jealous of me again. hehe! but that's not what i want. i do not wish to keep getting thinner. so hope to maintain my weight as it is.as for my korean course. somehow i feel stress. do not like the way he teaches. he does not allow the class to write the sound of the word. everything have to remember. is impossible for me to remember all. somemore still give us homework to do. have to know all the vowel and consanant. still need to know them when both are together. oh please! is only 1st lesson. and we have to know this? have to remember everything? is really a stressful things. now i'm not sure want to withdraw from the course. heard that there is refund. so i hope i can get the refund and withdraw from it. afterall i only attend the 1st lesson. 
a formal class photo!
another shot!
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when we were not ready.
and finally! cheeze! green is my world @ 6:53 AM
wow! today first day was quite ok. lucky never lost my way. then saw some lsct foc camp mates. today was quite lucky that i have camp mate in the same class as me. wow1 so wonderful lorx. so we went everywhere together. but the worse thing is that the lessons need us to have textbk and notes. so no choice have to use my break time to queue up and buy the stuff. so ended up being hungry for lesson. my stomach suffer yea. then in between went to have a look at the cca fiesta. see some of the cca and am quite interested in adventure seekers. and also track and field. so have to depend on what to join. then at 5pm, all my lessons ended and am on my way home. such tiring day. walking round the school to find materials. so on the whole, today at np was ok. may it be like this forever. green is my world @ 4:34 AM
wow! sch starting tml. feel kind of weird. and have to get up early again.
anyway today went to see my og colleague. feel so happy to see them. but the sad thing is that, liting was being transfer to baby department. sad for her. she can no longer come back to the shoes department. i did not manage to see her as she was too busy. so did not want to disturb her. then went to have a little chat with sook khuan, ting ting and later cecilia. but seeing them so busy, do not wish to get in their way, so i bid them good-bye. maybe some other day i will go visit them again. and maybe have dinner with them.
then went home early. doing some last min stuff before sch starts tml. may everything will go smoothly tml. all the best to all freshies!
before!
after i wear the goggles!
feel so weird sia!
green is my world @ 4:34 AM
wow! today went to np to buy my labcoat. damn expensive. went there spend 3o over bucks. my heart pain. i think all my pay i got working in OG have been use for my poly life. really spend alot for my poly. firstly have to buy clothes for poly as i do not have clothes. so spend quite a bit there. then today went np to buy labcoat. 18 bucks sia. went to buy with my friends, gladys and huiling. but somehow there are 2 more guys who went. and i feel so bad. everyone was like waiting for me. feel so bad. due to them wanting to download their software, so i went later. but who knows, the downloading was so fast and i have to rush there like hell. then wait for 151 was long. so in the end, the whole group was like waiting for me. feel bad. also, i bought the goggle. the one which can contain my spect. wow! wear that one is very ugly. and the goggle is big too. like cover my whole face. so in future i cant wear contact lens for experiment. the goggles cost me $13.90. so this 2 items better last me for 3 yrs. if not really hurts me. after that we went to have lunch. i did not eat so just have some chat with them. after that hasyimah called so gladys went to accompany her. then we went home after playing some stupid game. on the way saw ulric and hasyimah. they were having their day camp, orientation camp. so we just say hi and we were off.somehow i just do not feel like going poly. i also do not know why. my friends also feel the same. may my view will change after the first week. now in the dilemma, not knowing want to go to the lsct foc sentosa outing not. also i planning to have an outing with the 5n to the sentosa on fri. but i guess no onee wants to go. it's a pity! green is my world @ 4:17 AM
green is my world @ 3:34 AM
wow! my camp ended ytd. actually it was quite a boring one. not as fun as the FOC i went last week. 1st day was kind of boring. nothing much to do. my group was not high at all. cheering was even worse. no one want to shout. so i just follow suit. i was separted from my firends and all were in different group. games was very dirty. really dirty like hell. but first day was all water game. due to women business. i did not play much. 1st game was the mud. i only play halfway and not continue. eating the watermelon using hand. disgusting. but i still eat. then went to mix and match. i did not eat any and was out. i was being left at a corner with some other friends. quite sad. but at the later part, i join in the fun. i do not care wet or not. i just play. anyway that was the last game. then we had a bath. waited outside the toilet just to have bath. quite idiot i should say. but no choice. then slowly 8 by 8 we went in. and later we were back in bed. sweet dreams!2nd day was even dirty. 1st event was the mud. i did not play. but was lucky that i need not ne that dirty. then 2nd game i join in. that was fun. water splashing on you was so good. then started clap clap cheer on the mud. mud splash on me. yucks! dirty man. then we had the next game, was to take the ping pong ball out. rennel and i went to find rubbish bin and we take out the rubbish. damn smelly. then we went to give it to the guys to let them re-fill the water. the rubbish make me itch. and is so smelly. but we did not manage to take out the ping pong ball. is really wasted. then went to water bath. we have to find a way out of the squares. if step on the wrong square, have to be punished with chendol or mash egg poured over our head. i got it once and did not do much. and eventually we ended the game. then the GLs throw flour over us. make our hair white. next game we went to the smelly station. they throw in lots of food. smell like hell. and due to the rain. they cut short the thing. we have to roll on the mess. everyone smell like shit. our shirt was dirty. then we went to the last game. water captain ball. we cant stand, butts to be on the floor. so i play too. hack care everything. then water splash on us. we clean ourselves. but not entirely. and we were back to the sports complex. we bath and this was the first time i had to bath with people. they force us to share cubicle. so is like taking our own sweet time to bath. difficult to bath with 2 people. then we went back to the hall and we had dinner.campfire was not nice at all. no fire. they just call us to sit in our rows and they started the whole thing. but before that, we started our performance. we practice and came out with a last minute performance. i was to act as head of demon. and our performance was to be a laughtable one. every group make their story so tiring. make me want to sleep. it was only toward the last few group that it was funny. and we had the funny one too. so quite mix well. then we had disco night. but due to the music failure, it was cut short. and we went to our own group and started playing. then we dance with the whole group, singing ourselves. quite funny. and at about 2am, we were out to have out night walk. we went to the haunted blk, blk 50. then we had some time to sleep. so i slept awhile and was sitting there listening to ghost story by the senior of np. they themselves experience such stuff. quite scary after listening as it was our turn to have the night walk. i should be walking with rennel but she cried and we headed back. so in the end i walk with a guy. then we walk. actually is not that scary. it was only at some point. but did not scream. we even play with them. and say wow! very scary. we were there making fun. at the same time i also hoping to end the walk soon. we walk from one blk to the next. total passing 3 blk. and the whole thing ended at am. we were back at our bunk. GLs called us to sleep but we did not. we played and much noise. hahas! then slowly one-by-one, then GL came in. they draw on people. hahas! i know they will draw so i did not sleep. then our group was best. saw people sleep, ask GLs to draw them. then we had our chat and slowly people started to sleep. but i did not sleep.on the last day, was worse. people were lik dead people. we did not cheer much as my throat hurts. then had breakfast and later were inside our bunk and we had some cheer. later went to LT 24 to have the talk. we dance, cheer. and later AGL started coming up to have dance. they sabo one another. and was continue by having the whole group to be tied together by string and we dance with it. then we had prize presentation. my group, raiko, was the last to take the prize. and u know what was it? it was the most united group. oh my. unbelieveable. and you know what is the prize? it was the marker being drawn on parts of the body. we had a lady to accept the gift. different from other group. then we had a group photo taken. and later we sign the flag. and we talk and soon, i was back to home sweet home!COMMENTS!actually this camp was not at all fun. people were not high. did not really miss this camp. food was ok. breakfast sucks. eating bread. worse camp i ever join, having bread for breakfast. as for lunch and dinner was quite nice. but i still did not finish all. too much for me. then talks with Gls was ok. they really care for us. trying hard to make us high but we cant get high. it was only until the 2nd night that we were high and get everything done.somehow i do not want school to start. i feel it was kind of tiring to be in np. somehow i just feel that i get to the wrong course. hope it will not be like what i think. 2 more weeks and poly life will start. i just could not stop missing FOC camp by the student union.
a gift from the GLs green is my world @ 10:50 PM
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