wow! have been having intense study. so have been string inot my lappy for notes. n then copying into my notes. my notes is all full of notes. so u shld know how much i need to copy for 4 lectures. n how much time i need to use to copy it. staring into the screen is all words. can be quite boring. think i will need to change my spect soon at this rate i'm staring into my lappy. so endure for 1 more week. n i will be free.
just 1 more week,
i willl be free like a bird,
will be out of my bms cage
n will have whole lots of fun with TXY's family!
wendy! just bear with it! fighting!!
this is what i have been doing to my notes! scary!!!
green is my world @ 11:55 PM
haix! ended no ice-cream today. sian. so just went bishan with hasyimah and then we study. study till like 8pm. after that went to have dinner at long john. then we thought of having ice-cream at swensens. but the queue was bloody long, so we ended up not queueing up and headed hm. thinking that my aunt would want to eat, i went to find my aunt and she told methat swenens close at 9.30pm. so is a wasted trip. no ice-cream, but my aunt treat me to ice-kachang. hahas! so gd. free somemore.ok. so rite till here. need rush revision! tsk tsk! green is my world @ 8:01 AM
hahas! today going to eat ice-cream with hasyimah. damn love it. cant wait that time will pass quickly to 6pm. i missed ice-cream so much. oh no! ice-cream is on the way. hehe.after ice-cream will be wendy's intense studying. for sat as well. hahas! gonna work hard le. have been slacking for the pass 6 weeks. so have to buck up now. need to study all that i was ask to. must get my distinction. oh yea! wendy, u will get what u deserve. so work hard. and later will have whole lots of fun with the txy family. waiting for holidays. waiting for shopping. waiting for fun. oh yea! so wendy, just bear with 1 more week and you can fly for 2 weeks. so go wendy! fighting! green is my world @ 10:34 PM
today wake up damn early. but shld thanks sabrina i do not have to take bus go n wake up damn early. actually shld wake up at 5 but wake up at 5.30 instead. then rush here n pack my stuff. finally reach serangoon station. somemore is earlier. then saw edna n later shahira came. follow by the main host, sabrina. hahas! her father fetch all of us to sch. wow! so good. anyway i did thanks her dad. but really still need thanks him again. and we started our duty. today is lsct grad day. so we volunteer our services and help out. actually my group(grp A) shld have more ppl, but they back out due to some matter. so left 2 of us, edna n me, doing the registration. lucky the staff there is good. they help us. they even got us 2 helper from the sch of ba. hehe. so everything was fine. just keeps walking up and down tat's all. the gold medalist was really pro. did so well sia. when will i be like them? i think is kind of fat hope. my grades compare to the class was nth. all single pointers, me, double digits. so want to be in that category, shld hav my pillow put high high. n know what,wearing an undersize shoe is not gd. my toes have blisters!after the whole thing, we went to have lunch at some market. eat till so fun. then went back sch to do the information paper for comt. and wait till 4pm for cbo lecture to start. and am on my way home after that to do my revision. green is my world @ 5:26 AM
hahas! today finish another project. wow! is cell bio. we have been doing it since week 4. but due to the tight schedule, we were not able to compile everything. so last week, we were rushing on it. and today is presentation time. hahas! so happy. happy that we can answer the questions they ask. before the presentation i was like so nervous. the teacher n some classmates just keep throwing questions. i was so cared that i just keep remembering my slides. n when it was my grp turns i was like shivering. cold like hell. then i haven finish the first part, the teacher ask me qns. glade that i did ans some. maybe out of point bahx. but after everything, questions asked were all ok. my group can ans. tat's so great.another thing is iac is done. actually it was last week. we were the first to present. we spoke in 3 different language to introduce ourselves. the lecturer was quite impressed. so we just carry on. and so far i think my grp was the best. then today went to see him regarding comments. he said tat i talk like a bullet train. talk very fast. so yap. actually i have been liddat. just cant kick it. but on overall, after moderation, we can at least secure an A. which was quite a gd thing. an A is better than nth. so yap, 2 project clear!now oli left information paper for comt. due this fri and hav not done much but the introduction. so have to rush again. and next week is commom test. just have not started much. oh my! gonna do well. if not 20% gone. jiayou wendy! green is my world @ 3:15 AM
common test is in one week time and i have not finish studying for the modules. i'm totally stress now. i do not know what to do. yesterday, i done all the biostat revision paper. still find it manageable. hope the test will be something like this. after that, i should be doing revision on organic chem. and know what i did not study at all. i went to watch tv. damn my eyes. why i want to watch the charity show. then show ended at 10 and i just sit there and watch. i cried lots of time (believe it or not.) then after the show, i study some of the organic chem. i should be thankful that i bought a textbk. so is kind of lucky. now at least i know what's going on. feel at ease. but the thing is that i need lots of time to finish reading all the infor. time is really not enough.as for cell bio, i just did not do anything. i do not have books for that. is just too expensive for me to buy. how i wish i could buy that book and do the reading. for me, i totally do not know what's going on in cell bio. do i have a simple mind? i really need someone to teach me again. really!i do not why i just keep thinking about the info tech test. it just keeps coming into my mind. even when i'm sleeping. i just can't help to forget the test. i just hate that feeling. what should i do? how i wish i can get a re-test for the info test. i do not wish to fail the subject. i do not wish to repeat it. oh pls help me. green is my world @ 6:11 PM
actually do not wish to write but somehow i remember a project has to be done and was not done. so came here to say it out. u shld know keeping inside one's heart is bad for health. so decided to write it here. hope he will see it.so the project i was talking bout was info tech project. the project carries 40% which is quite a lot. having the feeling that i will surely fail the info test on tues, i just feel that this project should be done quickly and nicely. and for goodness sake, the leader, kiahow just do not bother about it. i was so bloody pissed. somehow just do not why i would choose such a leader. oh no! at first thought he would do a good job but was not. he just keep delaying. i thought of helping him but it was his job, i just cant help him all the time. someone even told me not to help him. the schedule should be out like wat, last 2 or 3 weeks. n guess what, he has not even do it. on the day of the test, i told him to quickly do a draft out n post it on mel. he did not even do. u know what he said? he say 'i haven do. have to do quite a lot of things this week.' so i was like, pls lor u shld have done it long ago and not this week. he just hack care. oh no! for goodness sake, can someone knock some sence into him and ask him to do the schedule? and ask him to give us a job. we cant be keep on researching on HDB rules and regulation. there shld be more into it. if i were to fail this info tech module and repeat the module, i will surely not going to forgive him. i will make hell out of him. he shld better start doing something now. or i wont know when i will freak out. n he wont want to see the nasty side of me. a pass would be ok for me, but not a fail. green is my world @ 3:02 AM
life in np can be that bad. today is totally my unlucky day. guess wat? i did not bring extra clothes for the games with director. so in the end i did not participate in it. i was just staring at them. i even went to hide in order not to go near the playing area as i have experience been flour by the gls. so i was just running away. then i together with valen, sabrina, shahira and edna went off early. i lie to them saying we need to do our iac project. somehow feels so bad now. actually i want to join in the fun but just becoz of the long pants i hate it damn lot. so just lie together with the rest. and i went home.as for today biostat quiz, i was very blur too. i thought is written on paper but guess wat, is using laptop. thanks sabrina for telling me. if not i will just think tat is written on paper. but i did not on as smoothly. i only got 19 out of 25. quite bad. but too bad, tat's the score i will be getting. so just be it. but the most unlucky thing is my info tech quiz. i think everyone will be saying bout this. i will say my part too. not to be proud, i think i gonna fail this quiz damn badly. i heard there is 7 parts to it. and u know wat i only do 2 part. and i did not even finish the 2 parts. i was damn pissed. everyone like can do more. izzit due to me too slow or wat? i really hate info tech after this quiz. how i wish there's a 2nd attempt. failling a modules means retaking next sem. i hate it damn lot. so now can oli depend on the project to pass the whole module. i did not ask for more, just a pass, a grade C would be enough. i would be very happy then.somehow i feel so stress now. i just do not understand wat the lecturers are saying. somehow i just think that i'm very stupid. so stupid tat i do not even know what i'm doing. n my bloody mind is always slping. just wont study. i wonder wat's the use of studying so much now. i somehow feel like stopping sch and just end it here. wont that be gd? common test is in 3 weeks time. i still have not start revision. i'm sick of lessons. sick of sch. can anyone tell me how? tell me wat to do. i need help!!! feel so slacky now. oh wendy! pls wake up n start studying! green is my world @ 4:09 AM
wahaha! guess what? just now when i type my url, i was shocked sia. i thought i go to the wrong website. then i saw biostat sux! then i was sure this is mine. then i read my taggy. and saw hasyimah's name there. i was like. ok. she stay up the night to help me make. n i dun like pink. but ok la.. plain and nice. just like my style. like it damn lots.to hasyimah:hi my dear! thanks really damn lot. i din know u help me do the blogskin. u shld have let me know. i was like shocked to see it sia. but anyway like it. i know blue is difficult to find. but nvm. pink is just alright to me. will grow to like it. so u stay up the night to help me. sry yea. i din know. n u haven do ur homework. sry! so how do u wan me to thank u? wat u wan? but pls yea. not too expensive k. anyway can only say thanks now. dunno what else to say. so thanks a million! muacks~to edwin:wahaha! thanks sia. i like that song. so sry to trouble u to help me put inside the blog. so u like that song ma? lively horx! hahas! anyway i can only say thanks again. coz i dunno u. u dunno me. cant do much. but still thanks for helping. love u! muacks!so in the end. my life was so great. ppl help me finish my blogskin. a new blogskin= a new chapter of life. thanks a million! happy! Happy! HAPPY!!! green is my world @ 12:22 AM
wow! biostat really sux. do not even know how to do. the ans was given but just do not know how to do it. she did not even teach. lecture notes have nothing of that. is really an idiot. somemore there is so many tutorial work. arghhh..... hate that teacher sia. then have to go through on tues. damn it. hate it!so in the end i did not finish the work. just do my cell cio project. hoping today will finish doing it. oh pls pls! let me know how to do. let my stupid brain be smart a little for today. let my brain be alert and finish up the biostat work. is really too many to complete. oh no!tues is biostat test and info tech test. guess what 2 test in a day. hate it. all thanks to mrs chan, who choose tues to have biostat test. thanks yea! so i have to study for both. and guess what? i haven started my revision yet. and is due to... biostat tutorial. there is really too many work to do making me unable to finish the biostat. n worst! not able to study for test. info tech is open bk, at least can don't need study a little. but biostat is not open bk. need to study. i have not even touch the bk. so.. may i be able to start my revision today. green is my world @ 7:07 PM
yesterday, went all the way to changi airport with the intention of doing our cell bio project. but ended up, we were all rushing with our organic chem. we were doing our last min e-learning work. so do not have time to discuss the cell bio practical. early in the morning, i meet sabrina in the train and head toward chan airport. then thinking that terminal 3 will have place, we went there to see. indeed there is place but no plug. so sad. we walk practically for 45 mins in terminal 3 looking for plug and ended up seeing only harry's has lots of plug. but the food was expensive, so we just walk off. then we went to terminal 2, taking the skytrain. wow! nice sia. so we walk around again. and eventually saw startbucks and was thinking that startbucks should have plug. indeed there is so we settle ourselves there. and later valen and her bf arrive. and we started our e-learning. we had ice white coffee. nice! as for lunch, i just forgo, only eating my biscuit.valen left us and we went on to finish the info tech which is due today. the quiz was dificult. lucky there's 2nd attempt. so we went home to do again. and i got full marks. hahas! happy! actually happy that i can finish so many work at one go. feel so proud of myself! but using 6 hours to complete everything. feel so free. but still have other tutorial to do. still need work!and now, my iac. ppl say meet at 9am at ourspace. guess what been 40 mins and she's not here. 2 waiting for 1. is not worth it. did she forget our date? or she overslept? just did not give any of us a msg. let's see what she has to talk later. our final presentation should not be ruin just like this! is our hard work!! green is my world @ 6:27 PM
guess what having e-learning is a torture. i would rather have sch then staying at home and do e-learning. everything learn yourself is kind of idiot. especially biostat. do not even know what to do. is like totally out of the thing. the notes also did not teach and expect us to finish it. and also the e-tivities did not show us the way in getting the ans. oh my! i really gonna faint. maths! my best subject but has been ruin by this stupid biostat. damn it!today went to school so early. actually meet at 2 but was push forward to 12. due to one who need to interview her senior. so have to give way. but at thought some say we should not go to the extend that we have to beg them and give in to them. but she give in. so we also have to. yap. feel kind of pissed. she can do it for her seniors but why not my friends. kind of biased rightanyway just hope to finish this soon. i'm getting sick of this project. somehow i like to see the faces of the people being interview. so cute. more will come. hehe!watching movie later. family matter= movie. hehe. hope will be on time to meet my sis! green is my world @ 12:56 AM
today is my meet up day. guess what i saw my txy family. wow! so happy to see them. and i was rough again. finally back to my usual self. so very miss myself. just like what i use to be in my secondary school. anyway i have been waiting for this day. and was shocked that levina will come. hehe! anyway was having such great time.today went to np for project. asking people of np to do survey. actually quite a tough job to do. i have little friends in np hence is quite a lot of work to do. for me, i was asking the year 1 for help. quite ok. at least i still have some friends here who can help me. then my team mates also got their friends to help. so for me, i just call hasyimah and gladys to help me. and my job was done. and now i have to collate the score.
to hasyimah:
hi dear, thanks for your help today. sorry to keep calling you when you have break. disturb your meal. anyway thanks for your help, as well as your friends help. really need to thank them a million. if not i do not know who to ask to help me. so here's saying a BIG thank you to YOU! my Dear Friend. muacks~
to gladys:
hehe. been long since i see you. but today see you, you have make my day. thanks for asking your friends to help me. as you know is e-learning week, it's difficult to get my friends to do. hehe. so you help me a lot. thanks a million. though there's no freebies your friend still help me. so really thanks them. if not i will have a hard time finding people to do the survey. so thanks a million!
after the whole survey, i saw yu kai in the canten. so we two went to zhs together. guess what, we were late for the meeting. but ling yeow and qing guo were not early either. they still drink their bubble tea. anyway we went in. yukai wear slippers and was not caught. so lucky of him. then we went round the school. saw mr wong but did not talk to him as he was busy doing work. then the guys went to borrow a basketball and started playing. i was there stoning. then slowly one-by-one, hasyimah, levina and zinam came. kendrick can't enter as he was wearing slipper. so he make a wasted trip. then he went back zhs for korean class. as for us, we stay in school. saw ms tan and we were talking to her. then say our school life. mr harzy came out and chat with us and later lu lao shi. so we keep talking. after a while, two went off, leaving ms tan to talk with us. ms tan even give me a pencil box. so nice of her. then she treat us eat biscuit. hehe. i very 'greedy', take two( she want give me de!)
as she need to continue marking her papers, she left us. and so we were back on our own. the school was very quiet. we just leave the school and later the guys suggest eating prata. so we went. i did not eat, just drink a tea. i also do not know what it call but it taste like red tea. with milk. quite nice. but very filling. so after drinking that i was very full. i did not finish it either.
after that we had photo shot. guess what every photo we take will have a person missing(he/she taking photo) or the joker just do not want to be in the picture(looking down or elsewhere or half the face gone)
leave me behind to play basketball
baozhu n tj having prata
tj avoiding the camera
a blur me!
what am i doing?
ah mian n yukai staring into space
candid photo!
part 2!
i'm the joker!
sisters!
joker: tj!
joker: ah mian
finally a nice shot! (where's director?)
best friends!
baozhu n me!
me and yukai! (not looking at the camera)
oh ya! where's director and me? (will take next time!)
green is my world @ 8:43 AM
here again. also do not know why i want to blog. somehow feel quite bored and decide to come here and blog. tiredness has been surounding for the whole of last week. and finally today is sunday. at least can sleep more. i want some breathing space. everything happening in school, my school work have been choking me to death. sometimes i just want to let go and choke to death. at least no need to suffer so much. but the thought of the school fees i'm paying, i feel that i should work even more. if not it will all be floating down the sea. and finally tomorrow is e-learning week. no school for the whole week. quite happy to hear that but it means more work to do. at this point, i have the urge to say how much i miss my zhs 5n classmates. just wondering how they are doing? are they feeling the same way as i do?(not enough time?) are they struggling just like i do? are they coping on with life? how much i miss them. especially my txy family. oh my, director when will u have the outing? when will it be ready? dying to see u sia. ah mian and tian jie, how have you been. i miss you 2. when can i see your? mermaid, though we in the same school, i do not get to see you. just feel like losing a friend. gladys! heard that you have change. change for a better. that's so good. but also did not see you around in school. i only see kendrick that's all.not to forget. i miss my chocolate. lewis tham how have u been? never msg u never see you. never tease u is so no life. ks and shengyang same school also din get to see ur. the soccer gang: actually quite miss them. want make fun of them. actually miss the whole lot of people in zhs except for some. i want to play wild again. but somehow my current classmates just will not play. they are so guai kia. oh my. they won't even do something rough. is so sian.oh ya. not to forget. i know a new friend. actually i do not know who he is. somehow just can talk nicely to him. meet him through msn. he can even cheer people up. slowly we exchange number and now we were msging each other. so good. he msg me everytime, even when i have lesson. i like that as lesson in np can be quite tiring and boring. so he will be there to entertain me. so good of him. so far he's the 2nd guy who will do this to me. i do not know him, never see him before and i can talk to them so nicely. that's so great.ok then. tat's all for today! missing all from zhs. tomorrow oing back. will be a great time. see mermaid, tj and baozhu. green is my world @ 3:17 AM
wow! yesterday was having such good time. had rock climbing which i never even try before. guess what entrance fee is only $2.50 and i get to climb 3hrs(including waiting time). it was so fun. lucky i manage to climb to the top. very nice to climb up. though is a little tiring, i still make it up. except that i lend out the 'diapers' and never get it back and i never have a chance to climb again. so in total i climb 4 walls. that's little. but at least i get to climb the all types. even the difficult ones. that's good. then for my last wall i got forfeit. i had to sing a song. wow! so paiseh. they ask me to sing 1 little 2 little 3 little indian. so i just sing. ask me sing louder. i also sing. then when falling that time, they hang me in the middle. and was ask to have a photo shoot. the rock climbing was fun. maybe i climb too fast and was ask to slow down. the rope was loss and not tight. left around 9pm and take 147. it took me an hour plus to reach home. so tired by then. and when i reach home was about 10+ 11. and i slept at 12. tired!
today wake up, do my research. did not go eunos for the job interview. actually i also do not know what it is. but ester arrange it for me and hasyimah. ended up, due to the project, everything was called off. so yap, no job. then irfan can and ask if the interview can be change to mon instead of wed. to me, i'm alright to it. but my team mates do not want so so be it. i also do not want to quarrel with her. so just do my job. and i just tell irfan that i cant the job that's all. anyway for your infor, we should meet the requirement of the interviewer and not them to meet ours.
to irfan:
hey pals, sry i cant help. i know u want to help me. but i just cant do the job myself.even if i can, my team mates wont wannt it. is team work. one say no and i have no say. so being leader is really just a name. has no authority to it. so really grateful that u actually ask ur friend to help me. do not worry. everything will be find on my side. so u just pretend that i did not ask u for help k. hehe! so u can save up on ur treat too. sry to take up so much of ur time. and thanks for lending me ur help. and yap, enjoy ur class outing on wed yea. cya when sch reopen.
to ester:
hey gurl, sry i cant make it for the job stuff. i know u stay up the night to help me fix a slot to see the manager. but really sry bout it. project just come suddenly and i cant do anything. i already try my best to hurry myself but i just cant do it. really sry! maybe some other day bahx. but for the time being, i have told the person that i have no intention of working now, due to my sch stuff. i still could not cope with the new life i'm having. so really grateful for ur help. and thanks. sry too! accept my apology.
ok. i have no intention of saying anything now. as i said team work is like this. one say cant, all cant. so yap. may i group will be the best! fighting!
next week e-learning week, more work to do. wendy do work hard. do not let urself down. stay focus! more chocolate on ur way! wahahaha *evil*
a 151 SBS transit bus (look like some bar)
comfortable chair
looks like a pub chair!
a fresh fish for grandpa b'dae.
most expensive dish.(lobster salad)
cute marshmallow by darlink justina green is my world @ 4:19 AM
wow! i miss Jerangkang Waterfalls! miss the cold water, the trek.from fri 2 may to 4 may, a group of us(tas) went trekking. though it was a tiring one, i like it lots. it really was adventure. on fri we spend our time in the bus travelling to malaysia. slept in the bus too(uncle was so noisy, disturb our slp). then soon we reach our destination. we wash ourselves up and were soon on our way to trek up the 'jungle'. so nice. oh ya, our breakfast was cereal. i do not like the cereal, but was force to eat it. no choice! then the jason force me to eat another packet. also keep asking me to drink milk. oh my! why is it me?anyway the trek was tiring. n dirty. hahas! but i like it. i never trek for a long time and was hoping for it. then we reach our camp base. tent was already set up for us. so cool. then we had lunch in the shelter as it was raining. so our trip to the waterfall was delay. and soon we were on our way. up the waterfall was taking such long time. really testing our patience. and the path was super long. but eventually we make it to the top. so nice. then we went higer to have a jump nto the water. so scary sia. i do not know how to swim and i just jump. heart was 'popping' non-stop. but lucky one of council people save me. so good of them. but good things just end so quickly. we had to make our way down to the camp base due to the weather and also night is coming. so we travel down. but i was kind of unlucky, fell so many times on my trip down. damn painful sia. i even need the gl to carry me into place. oh no! so paiseh. but then i just keep walking down. feel scared, so i take every step carefully. and also have to thanks my buddy, bh. quite look after me. also xiong. helping me. the fall really hurts, so they were always there to ask 'you ok ma?' feel so good to have them as mates.so we went back to the camp base. do so washing. but not bathing. then we prepare our performance. and here come the rain and the campfire was delay. but it still was held. but we were not high. only sebastian was high which brought the group high.and on sun, we were on our way back s'pore. sitting on the bus and the bumpy lorry. really hurt my ass. then again, it was a long way back to np. we have to wash the bottles, the tent. so i was soaked to the skin. and soon, i was back home to have a wonderful bath.so this trip, i have a wonderful day. i have a good 'papa', sebastian. then a good feeder, xiong. a good partner, bh. and a good team mates. hehe! green is my world @ 11:30 PM
leave me behind to play basketball
baozhu n tj having prata
tj avoiding the camera
a blur me!
what am i doing?
ah mian n yukai staring into space
candid photo!
part 2!
i'm the joker!
sisters!
joker: tj!
joker: ah mian
finally a nice shot! (where's director?)
best friends!
baozhu n me!
me and yukai! (not looking at the camera)
a 151 SBS transit bus (look like some bar)
comfortable chair
looks like a pub chair!
a fresh fish for grandpa b'dae.
most expensive dish.(lobster salad)
cute marshmallow by darlink justina